The love of a mother

They said she can’t be a mother

She can’t sing a lullaby

She is not lucky, they whispered

Her mother cried, father said no word

Her love hugged her tight

She felt low,her tears tough to comfort

Thinking of her dreams that will never happen

She burst out into tears

Her dreams of holding her baby

The cry and laughs of her tot

The Lullaby and the sleepless nights

The beautiful moments with her child.

Days moved, she lost her smile

Lost herself in dreams only

Watched the babies out cry

Loved to hear their laughter

Loved looking the toys around

The next door baby, she held him close

Just holding him gave her life

The little hands, legs hitting, the eyes

Just the baby’s touch

Gave her the love of a lifetime

Sometimes she cried out loud

Hugged him tight and said nothing

But that one day, she felt happy

Happy that her prayers were heard

Her lullaby's to be sung

They said she is holding her tot in her tummy

They said she is going to be a mother

They whispered she is lucky

Her eyes happier than ever before

She hugged him tight and said nothing

Left

Born as the lucky charm,

Daddy’s girl, mom’s dearest,

She had the best smile,

She was cute and beautiful

Keeping the home lively,

She was a charming pampered princess.

She grew as a young lady,

More beautiful she was

She met new people, visited new places

But still grew within her dad’s arms

Never rebuked but always pampered

Wedding bells rang

Married a young handsome guy

With lots of childish dreams and hopes

Dreams of getting more pampered,

More love and more freedom,

She loved him, so did he

All eyes admired her beauty

But somewhere she forgot her duty

Of being a wife, of being a lady.

A baby was born,

But she could never pamper him

As she wanted to get pampered

Sometimes more than her own little lad

All eyes still admired her beauty

But somewhere she forgot her duty

Of being a mother, of being a lady.

That day when her father left her,

She became more adamant, more irresponsible

That thought of her lost father’s love haunted her

She forgot her duty,

Of being a wife, of being a mother.

She was called insane

She was called stupid

Her man left her, with her only tot,

He left her forever,

Forever that she was alone

With no one to admire

With no one to pamper

Sometimes

Sometimes I wished that

My words were sharp

That It touches someone’s heart

Sometimes I wished that

My words were always heard

That It meant what my mind referred

Sometimes I wished that

My words were valued

That It never meant a foolish talk

Sometimes I wished that

My words broke the silence

That It showed care for someone

Sometimes I wished that

My words were soft

That it never hurts someone

The Road

She sat beside the road

Dull faced, unhappy smile

World looked happier except her

She broke into tears

There was no one to hear

She wept silently

A man, not rich, not handsome

Came to her, from an unknown world

From an unknown place

Watched her for hours from a distance

Came to her, closer and more

Hugged her and smiled

Her sorrows understood

Not from her words but from her eyes

Her world became more colorful

More colorful than the world

Her wishes fulfilled unasked

She looked beautiful, smiling always

Even the hot sun smiled at her

She watched her shadow

 Walking along with his

The rains held them tight

 Together under one umbrella

She did not fear the dark

He was always there for her

She never noted anybody around

It was all him

Days passed but unexpected he said

He must leave, leave her forever

She hugged him tight

She cried aloud

She held his hand and

Did not allow him to leave

But he left, without a hug

Without a word, without any promises

To an unknown world,

To an unknown place,

Again she sat beside the same road

Dull faced and an unhappy smile

The world looked happier than ever..

The other side

From a colorful street

I could see the other side
though another colorful 'other side'
but not colorful as this side

There were no borders but

I knew I will have to reach there soon

I know they would never like me

I know they have a smile, but never from their hearts

I know they are beautiful, but not from their hearts

I know they laugh, but not from their hearts

I know they will love my silence

Even the nature gave a good look, but not from her heart

Days passed I was about to reach the other side

I stopped, held my breath

Thought I cannot move, but I moved

Moved with a sigh and reached

Now the other side looked more beautiful

It was more beautiful than ever

I could feel It; I could remember the other side

The other side which made me happy

But never knew it could make me happy

Only for those few days of my life

I do not belong there

It does not want me anymore

It doesn't miss me anymore

I knew its always an ‘other side’

And I do not belong there

Wish I could be there again,

Far that I never reach this side......

My smile

My smile, where do you go
when the world around has one
I can't even hold you fake
My smile,i love you when
you rise unawaited
that others realize im happy
It hurts me when I search for you
when my pals want you
Its tough when i need to hide you
when my emotions overflow
Its cruel when I show you
when my emotions say I cry
Its naughty when I smile
when my mind says I lie
Those days I smiled true
remain memories that are through
Those days I smiled big
though reasons I had to dig
My smile,I remember you now
not because you once made me alive
but because you are now unseen.....

Darkness

I could see light even during the night

I could see me smile even during a fight

I could see clearly though things were not bright

I felt free even when the world was holding me tight

It was one day I realized I was moving away from light

I was moving away from my smile

I was moving away from others

I was moving against the right

I thought I was happy

I never knew future was not this

I never knew I missed the light’s kiss

This day I realized light is miles away

This day I realized I had left it

This day I realise I am in complete darkness

Search

Don’t really know where I lost me

The real me...

A Feeling of not being free

My smiles sham, hiding what I am

My actions weak, unknowing what I seek

My words not from heart, an unknown art

My weep I hide, even that being denied

My wishes not told, mind never bold

I keep searching for me

my search others may never see......

Remembering You

Those few hours when I sat beside you

Remembering those moments not few

You held my hands, walking along the streets

Forgetting you will have painful feet

You always bought some toy

So that I play, you watch and enjoy

We often fight and later forget

Your stories many times heard, you talk till I yawn

All my b’days wished, though yours sometimes missed

You take me to the hotel when ain’t hungry  But i knew you were

You never stop waiting at the gate, even if I say I might be late

You stood in that crowded bus, made sure I was seated in that rush

But ‘Achacha’, I can’t believe you’ll

Never call me on my b’day,

Never fight for no reason

Never wait till I sleep

Never talk to me again

And never be alive again......

Her Dream

                                       

That one day will come when her daughter

will see the world without any fear....

the fear of being a girl, the fear of being a women

Her daughter learns, till the day she yearns

Her daughter says No, when she needs to bow

Her desires always being heard, never words being unheard

She wedlock's with the man, who forever thinks 'she can'

She no more cries for what others think why

Her child will fly high till the days say goodbye.....